Woke up this morning with a stomach ache, eyes swollen, tired, exhausted.
I hate fighting, I hate feeling like it is all my fault. I still love you, I always will. And the more we fight, the more I fear that I will be alone sooner or later. I cried myself to sleep last night pretty much. The thought of going to be alone killed me and I was so happy when I woke up with you besides me, but then I cried some more because I fear that you already made your decision to leave me. I know some days I feel distant, but all I want to do today is hold you.....
I don't know if I can live without you..............................
About Me
- Asuka飛鳥 Nosaka野坂
- Ft Collins, Colorado, United States
- I am now a Senior at Colorado State University and I am an Ethnic Studies major minoring in Sociology. I am a Ethnic Studies major because I wish to create change in this country and to have an impact on my community.
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I want to be able to say so many things right now to make you feel better dear!!! But I know I'm not the person you want to hear them from but just so you know,
I understand how you feel sometimes.
You won't be alone, If you want I've got an empty hand that you can hold if you need it.
Take care of yourself and I will tell you it will be okay and that person.... something tells me they haven't decided to leave, because they can't live without you either.
Let me know if you need me!!
PS: And on a health note... we have a gym date... I don't know when but lemme know when you can pencil me in!
Big love to you!! *hug*
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